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I've been in a very similar situation. In 2005 I was working at a restaurant as a cook. One day a new server was hired. Her name was Jen...
Jen and I didn't really hit it off at first. We weren't really each others' type. Plus, she had a fiance. Over time we did start being friends, though.
Now, I'm not going to go over the details of how it got to this point (that would make for a very long post), but soon enough we were hanging out pretty much every day. I found myself going into work on my days off and keeping her company. We would spend entire nights driving around and just talking. She eventually ended spending way more time with me on the average day than she spent with her fiance.
It didn't take very long for me to realize that I liked this girl. Once I realized it, I was very upfront about it, as well. I let her know how I felt and it came as kind of a shock to her. It's not, necessarily, that she wasn't starting to feel the same way about me, it was that she had a fiance and there was no way she was going to be dishonest and unfaithful to him. I understood that, but it didn't change my feelings and it didn't change the dangerous waters we were treading on.
Within a year or so's time, her and her fiance ended up splitting up. Not because of me, but because their relationship wasn't exactly a healthy one (which should be pretty evident based on my little story above). Much to my dismay at the time, this did not open the doors up for me. She had just gotten out of a long relationship and didn't want to get involved with anyone else for a while. Then, eventually, through some pressure I put on her consciously, and some pressure I put on her without meaning to, we ended up dating. Needless to say, it ended badly, she went back to her old fiance briefly, and I gave up. We didn't talk for two years...
Jen and I have been seeing each other for over a year, now. We got back in contact with each other last February, we worked things out, we went through some new things with the rehashing of old feelings, and finally the timing was right. I fully intend to spend the rest of my life at Jen's side...
Finally, the point: If you think this chick is worth it, fight for it. Fight hard for it, but know the boundaries. You will have to be incredibly patient and you will have to realize that your patience may never pay off...
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