I couldn't admit this anywhere but the internet.
As a male, I have been unable to form (from my perspective) non sexual relationships with attractive women who fit into the parameters of "potential girlfriends." Even while I am in a relationship with a wonderful girl, I am extremely nice to these other girls, sensitive, compassionate, but in absolutely no way make any sexual advances. Yet, after years of analyzing my own behavior, l have discovered that all the time I have invested into friendships with females has coincided with at least a slim fantasy-chance of us becoming more-than-friends.
This goes for girls I've been friends with who have boyfriends, which especially is weird for me because I have an almost rabid hatred towards guys who openly hit-on girls with boyfriends (a guy once flirted and flattered a girl away from me two weeks after we were publicly together. I sat back and let it happen because at the time I believed human beings were empathetic and honorable). The truth is that this behavior of mine really bothers me. I don't mean I'm undressing girls with my eyes, or that I don't actually care how their day went, but I am not able to sit down by a girl I find attractive physically and mentally and find motivation to interact with her beyond some distant sexual possibility.
What. The. Hell.
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