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4). Embarrassment: I'm not easily embarrassed, at all, but this girl can work wonders on it. She says "Lol" or "win" after every sentence, she dances with her hands in public too much, and I don't really like to be seen with her as a couple. :\
My ex was/is a slut. Unrelated to the topic.
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This made me laugh when I read it. But now that I have read this whole thread, it makes me feel bad. Mostly because you're fear of being alone is causing you to stay with someone who even you deem as embarrassing. No offense, but you have a very low opinion of yourself and yet you have a lower opinion of this girl. Why are you wasting her time? If you stay with her, you'll break up eventually and just imagine that shit storm. You'll probably grow to resent her and then you'll throw it in her face that you never loved her. If you truly don't want to hurt her, you'll end it.
I'm not sure how you personally should get to know/love yourself(which is incredibly gay) but I think it starts with realizing that everyone is fucking weird. It's not just you, so no one should make you nervous. The world's a stage, figure out who you want to be in all this bullshit and do your best to pull it off. In the long run, everyone is going to die and no one will give a shit at that point anyway.
As for feeling comfortable around people, maybe you could start by observing social situations in a non-creepy way. Again, I'm not sure how you should go about that either. Maybe people watching while you go to the bookstore. Anyway, I think that if you pay attention to people you will learn from it.
I'm afraid that smoking pot or drinking might just make your situation worse.
Also, It's very early and I couldn't sleep.