I'm trying to prove I'm listening. As far as "getting out", I went to the movies tonight. I almost talked to a girl behind the ticket selling window at the movie theaters. She was doing homework, then I came up to buy my ticket, which I did, and I was about to say, "How's that homework comin'?" and then smile, cause I always smile after stupid stuff like that. Anyways, I didn't say that, but I was realllly close this time! Next time I will!
Also, I was sitting on the bench outside the mall/movies, cause I got there early and I wanted to test out just being around other people, as a start, just to get used to the feeling. They were all pretty much high schoolers. This really tall guy sat next to me while talking to the group. He later introduced himself, "Hey man. *Shakes hand-thingy* Little John." I was like, "Oh snap, I'm Little John too!" and we got excited, haha. Then he asked my age and I was like, "25 believe it or not" and he's like, "No way! Stand up!" and I did, and he stood up next to me, and I overheard the group of girls say in a quiet voice, "He's sooo little!". Normally I'd kinda get upset on the inside, but I just laughed it off. I was about to say, "I'm not little laying down", which I think is a joke about having a big johnson (which would be mostly a lie), but I didn't make the joke. Wasn't prepared yet for that part in my training.
So, I kinda got out there and attempted to be normal. Minus the going to the movies by yourself part.
I went into the bookstore in the mall too, that's closing down and has 60%-80% everything off. They had a lot of manga books left, which made me a little sad because that girl is reallllly into manga (not my thing, really) and I would have loved to see if there were any she wanted me to pick up for her. I would do something like that for a friend. But it may be too late now.
Also, as a side question... Would something like a marijuana-joint help me ease up my shyness and intimidation? One of my online buddies who smokes it says that it totally made him see the world in a different perspective ever since the first time he did it. Not sure if something like that would help me. I know having a few drinks eases me up, but I can't really drive to places then.
Edit: If anyone here lives in Florida and can personally help me too, I'd do it!
Last edited by Mirth; 01-22-2010 at 09:16 PM..
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