Does she know you are a virgin?
Since the idea of carrying a condom seems to be uncomfortable for you because you think it will give her the wrong impression of you, why not talk to her about the situation if you are, indeed, in a position to "get lucky?"
What you can do is limit any sexual encounter with her to making out/heavy petting/etc. Give yourself a boundary, and stick to it - don't dare have sex without a condom. It's just dumb. If she tells you she'd like things to go further, explain your situation: you do not have a condom with you. If she has a condom, you know what her intentions were - and if you are comfortable with the idea, go for it. If not, let her know that you would like to take things further, but safely, and at another time.
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"Without passion man is a mere latent force and possibility, like the flint which awaits the shock of the iron before it can give forth its spark."
— Henri-Frédéric Amiel
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