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Thinking about death before joining the army
This is my first post here so bear with me;
Im joining the army and i plan on going to basic training in about 4 to 5 months. Serving my country in definitly a passion of mine and i feel like i wouldint be able to live with myself by sitting on the couch knowing that theres a war going on, call me crazy but in my heart the army is just somthing i have to do. I dont know why but it seems that death is always on my mind. I plan on going into the infantry and i always seem to come across the thought of dying. I sometimes think about how my mom or girl friend will be devestated if somthing bad were to happen to me. Other times i think of how i come from a long line of survivers ( Grandfather being a purple heart in korea/ two marine cousins/ mother surviving a horrible car accident against all odds) and i know that God wont let anything happen to me. Are these thoughts im having normal? do most people think this way before going or am i just being negative? i would post this on yahoo answers, but im not in the mood for some biased bullshit. Thanks
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