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Wes Mantooth · 12-19-2009, 11:31 PM

I've had pretty severe anxiety problems since my late teens. I've never been properly diagnosed with anything to be honest...the doctors always say its just general anxiety and throw medicine at the problem. None of it seems to make much of a difference though.

Although I try to lead as normal a life as possible sometimes just going to the store to pick up a pack of smokes or visiting friends can be a real chore. The worst part is not knowing when the attacks will hit or when they will subside, will it be when I'm driving? On stage for a show? Will it last 5 minutes or 4 hours? I've started hating doing the things I enjoy because of all of this...they simply aren't worth doing if I'm going to have experience a panic attack in the process (all I can really do is keep pushing forward and do them anyway...fuck the attacks right?). All of this can and does lead to feeling depressed about my life and I'm beginning to get concerned that I'm starting to develop agoraphobia because of it.

I don't know, I think I'm beginning to ramble. I just wanted to share I guess I don't get to talk with people about this very often.

12-19-2009, 11:31 PM	#80 (permalink)
Wes Mantooth Junkie Location: Tennessee	I've had pretty severe anxiety problems since my late teens. I've never been properly diagnosed with anything to be honest...the doctors always say its just general anxiety and throw medicine at the problem. None of it seems to make much of a difference though. Although I try to lead as normal a life as possible sometimes just going to the store to pick up a pack of smokes or visiting friends can be a real chore. The worst part is not knowing when the attacks will hit or when they will subside, will it be when I'm driving? On stage for a show? Will it last 5 minutes or 4 hours? I've started hating doing the things I enjoy because of all of this...they simply aren't worth doing if I'm going to have experience a panic attack in the process (all I can really do is keep pushing forward and do them anyway...fuck the attacks right?). All of this can and does lead to feeling depressed about my life and I'm beginning to get concerned that I'm starting to develop agoraphobia because of it. I don't know, I think I'm beginning to ramble. I just wanted to share I guess I don't get to talk with people about this very often. __________________ “My god I must have missed it...its hell down here!”