I can definitely appreciate your feelings of loss... most of us don't realise how much we rely on the constants in our life until they are gone. There is a sense of emptiness and disconnect as we contemplate our lives going forward without them. I felt it when my father died fairly young, but it wasn't until my grandmother died and I was left totally without parents/grandparents that I understood I was now without a connection to those earlier generations and history.
And when my children were born, I began to realise I was their constant. My house, just a house to me, was their home... something they would have more emotional attachment to than they would know until it was no longer there.
I hope that you do see your old friends again... but if you don't, they aren't gone, they just aren't there anymore. And there is a difference.
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