Mirth

Actually, the Walmart that is in the town where I go to school actually has a lot of women I'm attracted to that go there. I went in there the other day the get some cheap headphones, and it was full of girls I would have loved to talk to based on physical attraction, but when I'm in the moment, I get too tense ("easier said than done"). I just can never tell how busy a girl there is; like, I don't want to talk to some girl there who's in a rush to get what she needs and then bolts out of there. And I feel I have too much regard for not wanting to take the chance to make a girl say, "Well that was weird...." and then she has thoughts all day on how some random boyish guy hit on her. But I have to stop thinking like that, and that is what I am working on.

Anyways, thanks for the replies guys and gals, even the ones that laughed at me for my warehouse-stand . I'm learning, I'm learning. Very motivational words though, I know, I need more self-confidence, and I need to find happiness outside of a relationship. But I also feel that being in "this" town is also the problem too; there are just not that many choices of people my age as most all go off to main the colleges or military. It's very true, you can ask anyone that's lived here and they will tell you that there are just not that many people that are aged 20-35 here.

As far as local events, I actually looked that up this morning on several websites based on my town, and all the town events are just, focused at older adults and the elderly. There are no walkathons or beach cleanups or music festivals or anything like that, which makes sense. I will try going to the library over the weekend; I have a mid-term to study for anyways, but I can check out the peeps there too. Although, you can't really talk without getting "shushed", so, I dunno. Or maybe I'll study at the mall, or the bookstore.

As a side note, I've been contemplating on moving an hour and a half south of here to a different town/city, to kind of start a new life, while not quitting school (the main campus is located there). I might apply to the Best Buy there this weekend, online. It will force me to interact with customers and my co-workers, which right now I work for my family, and 90% of our customers are over 50 (Fact), the other 10% are 40-50. And, I will be forced to have a roommate, who might be cool and maybe I will make a friend. Plus, the school is the main campus, so there is a lot more people there, as opposed to the extremely tiny campus I go to. Money will be tight though, and I will have to take out loans (My goal was to finish school without having having to take out any loans, but this would prevent that from happening). But so far, it sounds like it's best choice for me.