Yeah ok - I think I follow. The English isn't that bad lol.
It's very common for comedians to either live with depression or to have had issues with depression at some point in their lives. Not only is it what feeds their creativity but laughter is sometimes the only thing that'll get you by. In your case, it wasn't humor but something else.
And yeah, I feel good can come from depression and sadness. I can look back on my roughest periods and appreciate the smallest things today - whether it be children playing in my yard or a chicken dinner - there were times I wasn't close to really experiencing either of these things even if they were right in front of my face.
Ty for contributing.
