Sorry if it seems foolish but I'm finding it extremely difficult to escape the idea of acquiring more oestrogens. The desire to become female had increased gradually since I last recognized it, and is now at the point where I feel a lot of depression - to the point where I become suicidal, on a daily basis. I can escape it for a short period of time (via distraction on another subject (e.g. perhaps watching a film or such)), but when I notice another female or something else related, it returns. I remember feeling an intense desire comparable to this when I was young before I hit puberty, but I hadn't felt depression like this before.
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