Vigilante

I had more to add, but I already flopped in bed and didn't have the will to get back up just to say it. Naturally, I forgot the profound words I put together last night.

Having an experience like this is saddening. You see, once you see this other side, as it were, this place becomes so insignificant that it's hard to describe. In essence, I walk around with one foot in the door to another realm. Now that doesn't mean suicidal, it just means that you learn a new kind of patience. I have a long life in front of me, with a high chance of pain in later years because of my spine. Yet having seen something greater, I have had to learn that it may take 40 years to get there. For now I have to ride the wave, live my life, embrace ideals that I feel best accepting, and not think about what awaits with anticipation. For a while it was difficult thinking of even being a part of society, but some events happened that leveled me emotionally and made me realize that I am here whether I want to be, or not. Basically a cosmic bucket of ice water in the face.

I know this may seem odd to some and this is fairly personal for me, but it is what it is. It's been my experience.

edit: Damn, meant for this to add to the previous post. Guess it had been too long.

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We contend that for a nation to try to tax itself into prosperity is like a man standing in a bucket and trying to lift himself up by the handle.
-Winston Churchill