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You have my heartfelt sympathy. Losing someone like that is devastating and nothing can make the pain go away. I don't know how long you had with her knowing she was terminal, but I also know that knowing in advance still doesn't let you prepare for the reality.
Although it is likely no comfort now, time will help. Lots of time. It doesn't exactly heal, but it does help. In the meantime, friends and activity are probably your best solution. Talk to your friends, lean on them, LET them help you. Don't shut them out. A true friend won't mind if you wake them at 3am because you just can't stand it anymore and need someone to talk to. Really.
Stay active. Force yourself to find things to do. It may not exactly ease the pain, but sitting at home thinking about her will definitely make things worse.
Again, I offer my sincerest condolences for you loss, and hope that knowing your friends and family are hurting for you helps in some small way.
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