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So how do you conquer it.
I'm having problems with an almost ex of hers. Yes, the dreaded 'best friend who i crossed the line with'. He seems to always be there. Texts. Phone calls. Classes. For the first month and a half I managed to stay level headed, dealing with the problems he presented her, the conversations we had about his inadequacies as a friend. Etc. And the constant reassurance that she cares for me [which I know and trust], and that he is just a friend [which I know and trust]. My problem is more with me feeling infringed upon as her boyfriend. I'm the romantic lead, he is the friend. But the checking in on her, the 'emotional support' he attempts to provide her, the way he dicks her around. I'm tired of him now. And it isn't really her fault, beyond the fact that she sees this from another angle (more realistic one).
The truth is that I'd like to pretend it's the infringement thing, that he's stepping on my toes, but I think I'm scared I'm not good enough for her. I know I am. I know I'm wonderful to her/for her. But I can't stop being:
- Touchy/Sensitive
- Snarky
- Clingy
A lot of my problems right now are amplified because I'm bored and lonely (not in school this semester). I'm living back home instead of in Toronto where I had built a life for myself. I'm feeling kind of lost.
Advice?
and [ps]: this guy is an asshole and even aside from my stellar display of a 16 year old's mentality, I wouldn't like him. And he does cross the line. I just can't deal with it in a proper, normal for me, non-childish way. I'm too in my head about it. Fuck.
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EX: Whats new?
ME: I officially love coffee more then you now.
EX: uh...
ME: So, not much.
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