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This board and the people, while strangers, have been so helpful and comforting. I have never had to go through the swings of emotions like this. One minute, sad and full of self pity and times, like now, I'm all cried out and quite strong. Right now I'm confident that I will find happiness, that I will be the best dad that I can be and that there will be a woman one day that is a better mate for me than the first.
Theres no point in being mad. What's done is done. We will still have to see each other almost every day and we will always be parents. However difficult, Ill words can never be spoken of each other to the kids.
The kids are 3&5 so they don't understand what's happening. We've told them that some nights they'll sleep at mommy's and some nights daddy's and also grand ma's. I don't know for sure but we plan on doing stuff (soccer, dance, etc) as a family.
If the tables were turned she has said that she would not be handeling it at well as I am. I feel that it is my burden to bear to be the better person and not allow this to get ugly. There are the lives and happiness of my childrens and my own to consider.
She may find happiness and what she's looking for and she may not and I have to remember that its not of my concern. I can't make her happy and its not my job to do so.
Even at my age I have a lot of growing up and learning to do.
Again just another word of thanks for all those that have paused and offered your thoughts and advice.
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