I've been in the car a lot today. After an appointment with my therapist, I decided around 2:00 that I'm no longer smoking in my car. I drove a good bit since then and didn't light up. Next plan of action is to clean out the car to try and lose the smoke smell. Therapist helped me a good bit to create a sort of plan. As well as more 'deep' stuff involving the addiction itself.
I have other steps I plan to take, but I think it's pointless to list them until they're checked off. Physically, I'll be working to not smoke in the house at all. That'll be a huge step, not to mention losing smoking altogether while online at home.
And I do have the nicotine gum that I'll use later down the road when I'm definitely smoking considerably less. I feel better about this now. I feel this just may be do'able.
Thanks to all of you.
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Oh - and I'm not telling my Mother that I'm trying to quit this time. Otherwise, like before, she'll stress the fuck out of me with 'Well, how'd you do today? You failed??? OH GAWD {insert name here,} WHY????"