Thanks guys.
I would LOVE to just be a social smoker, indulging every now and then. But I don't think I'll be strong enough for that.
When I've attempted quitting in the past (twice,) I thought I was going to die. I'm not exaggerating. I was so damn anxious, I couldn't think straight. I'd start back up by hitting a few butts I stashed away 'just in case.' That was stupid I guess - and nasty lol. But maybe I'll be better with the gum? And I do have a script for xanax that I don't take often. Maybe this will help me as well.
Fuck that re: $10 / pack lol. I think they're around $4.00 here but I buy by the carton. Hopefully not anymore.
Thank you for the words of encouragement.
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Oh - and I've heard of people quitting because they were sick and it just tasted bad. When I'm sick, I actually force myself to smoke so I feel normal, regardless of taste. How messed up is that?
Just wanted to tack that on lol.