Try weighing the same as you, but being a female.
No, I don't weigh this much any longer, but I did for a couple years. I am still 5'10" tho

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I would, and still, feel like an oaf. Girls are supposed to be cute, petite, dainty flowers. And I've always towered over them all... and the boys... throughout my school years. My dream man is 6'3" or taller. And unfortunately, my most recent ex was what I always wanted physically (6'5" - 310lbs) but we didn't work out.
The thinnest I've ever been was 127lbs and I was strung out on coke then. I was very skinny yet curvy. I actually wore a size 12 at that waif weight. I won't state my actual numbers right now lol, but I could stand to lose a few.
Regardless, I think I have an idea of what you're feeling. I'm never going to be the teeny tiny blonde cheerleader who gets on top of the pyramids. And I don't like it. I hate it. But such is life.