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Strange Famous · 08-05-2009, 02:42 PM

I have worked at the company I work for for 8 years, and I am (I am not boasting) the person who knows the core system best of all, who understands what we do day to day best of all. shortly I have no involvment in strategic decisions, but operationally control everything the business does.

And, this month, something happened that made me feel like shit.

I am by turns completely careless about my weight and deeply upset by it. It troubles me enough to damage my self esteem, but not enough to make me make a concerted effor to lose weight. Many people here know the kind of size I am, but for those that dont, Im 5 10 tall, and weigh between 280 and 310lbs normally (and in bad times have got close to 330)

Im an definitely fat, but also I think big and strong rather than round and soft.

Recently my company had a dispute with a trucker who we had given license to park his wagons at the side of our fuel depot (basically the trucker threatened the site operator we employ and was served notice) He arranged a meeting in our office to argue his case about not being thrown off the site (which could mean him losing his O license) and my boss (who is on the board of the parent company that owns my company) asked me to be in the meeting with him and the guy who's actual job it is to deal with this shit.

So I went along. And just before the meeting my boss told me the trucker guy was a huge guy who was violent and he basically wanted me to be there for that reason. I wasnt that happy about it. The meeting went as exectedand the guy started getting abusive, as if on cue I stood up and told him to calm down and that the best thing he could hope for was just being chucked off his site... nothing else happened of course.

But I really resent it.

If I wasnt a big fat pig I wouldnt (as a manager and expert in the company) be called in to basically act like a bouncer. But I still do it and play along with the whole persona, out of some idiotic sense of macho pride.

I dont even know what this thread is about to be honest... but there must be other people on here who feel the same or have been in the same situations, as a big guy why do you always have to be considered as a thug?

08-05-2009, 02:42 PM	#1 (permalink)
Strange Famous follower of the child's crusade?	If youre 5 10 and 300 lbs is it impossible not to be seen as a brute? I have worked at the company I work for for 8 years, and I am (I am not boasting) the person who knows the core system best of all, who understands what we do day to day best of all. shortly I have no involvment in strategic decisions, but operationally control everything the business does. And, this month, something happened that made me feel like shit. I am by turns completely careless about my weight and deeply upset by it. It troubles me enough to damage my self esteem, but not enough to make me make a concerted effor to lose weight. Many people here know the kind of size I am, but for those that dont, Im 5 10 tall, and weigh between 280 and 310lbs normally (and in bad times have got close to 330) Im an definitely fat, but also I think big and strong rather than round and soft. Recently my company had a dispute with a trucker who we had given license to park his wagons at the side of our fuel depot (basically the trucker threatened the site operator we employ and was served notice) He arranged a meeting in our office to argue his case about not being thrown off the site (which could mean him losing his O license) and my boss (who is on the board of the parent company that owns my company) asked me to be in the meeting with him and the guy who's actual job it is to deal with this shit. So I went along. And just before the meeting my boss told me the trucker guy was a huge guy who was violent and he basically wanted me to be there for that reason. I wasnt that happy about it. The meeting went as exectedand the guy started getting abusive, as if on cue I stood up and told him to calm down and that the best thing he could hope for was just being chucked off his site... nothing else happened of course. But I really resent it. If I wasnt a big fat pig I wouldnt (as a manager and expert in the company) be called in to basically act like a bouncer. But I still do it and play along with the whole persona, out of some idiotic sense of macho pride. I dont even know what this thread is about to be honest... but there must be other people on here who feel the same or have been in the same situations, as a big guy why do you always have to be considered as a thug? __________________ "Do not tell lies, and do not do what you hate, for all things are plain in the sight of Heaven. For nothing hidden will not become manifest, and nothing covered will remain without being uncovered." The Gospel of Thomas