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Originally Posted by FuglyStick
as frivolously as "gave it a shot, babe, and you weren't scratching the itch" shows very little character. Buck up and admit you made a mistake, that you weren't ready for commitment, rather than debase the idea of commitment.
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being together for a decade is a little bit different than gave it a shot babe.
there seems to be an idea floating around that i want nothing more than to be away from her when its the other way around -- i would love for our relationship to work. i want it to. i want to love her forever and be with her until were old and spending our retirement. but i cant mask the sense of dread i get waking up every day. i cant mask the constant wonder of what it would be like with a more cheerful person. i cant pretend that i dont care if its weekend, workday, night, day, vacation, slammed at work, its all nothing. nothing really phases me in life because i feel restricted by our relationship. if i could trick myself or my feelings into wanting to be with her forever then i would.