It sounds to me like you really want out of the relationship, and you want our support and for us to tell you to go for it. I left my boyfriend of seven years in the spring, because even though I love him very much, I wasn't feeling "in love" anymore.
I know I hadn't made the legally binding decision to marry him, but the emotional ties were all but knotted. It was the hardest I have ever done, but I am happier, and he is doing okay.
If you are really and truly unhappy and believe that you would become a better you if you were to leave, you should leave. You've already convinced yourself, so stop waiting for us to say it's okay.
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who am I to refuse the universe?
-Leonard Cohen, Beautiful Losers
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