Hello all. A little bit about me. I'm actually 24 years old, male, and lost my virginity a week ago to the woman I love dearly.
Here is the problem. I didn't enjoy the sex. Or the BJ...
She is a very sexy girl, we've been in a long distance relationship for a year now and she's finally moved here with the family. We've met in person twice, but we both are very comfortable around each other, and enjoy each other's company. The third time we met, we had planned to have sex at my place, and we did.
I was nervous at first, but she made me feel comfortable. She has "experience", and she doesn't mind at all that I don't. We started with feeling, then I stuck it in her condomless and started doing her. But.... It's almost as if I didn't feel anything... I'm not big down there, about 5.5" (
) and average or tiny bit less girth, which thankfully she accepts and "says" it doesn't matter, and she felt tight anyways; heck, I had a hard time getting 2 fingers in there, hehe. But when my penis was in there, it's almost as if I felt nothing... Also, when she was giving me a BJ, I thought it would feel great, but, it's almost as if it felt like nothing too. Even when she licked my penis, I felt nothing. The only thing I really felt was her handjob...
So anyways, we were in bed for a full hour, three or more quarters of that being us having sex, and I couldn't cum, in fact, I didn't have the feeling of "I'm halfway there" or anything. She LOVED the sex, and I even made her orgasm once with my penis and three times with my fingers, and I don't think she was lying because I felt a rush of wetness and it was slightly sticky when I took them out, and besides, everyday since, she has been telling me how great it was and how great it was that I lasted soooo long, especially on my first time. I say it was great too, but, I kinda don't feel it was... There were a few times where I was getting exhausted from pumping hard and constant, and I'd lose my erection and go to a semi-soft. Was embarrassing, but she kept telling me it's okay, and she did things to get my aroused again, she's very sweet. I also slipped out like, 10 times, that was really really embarrassing because I keep thinking, I'm too small to be able to really pull and push at a good distance... But again, she was very sweet about it, telling me to keep going and that it happens to everyone and it doesn't matter.
I'm not sure what the problem is, and, I'm really afraid of not ever enjoying sex, because I've been looking forward to it for many years and the actual feeling of it wasn't anything great...
I told her I might have had "performance anxiety", which is why I didn't cum (but little does she know that I didn't enjoy the actual sex). She said we can work on it and I'll eventually get comfortable enough to not worry about everything. But I'm really not sure if that's the problem. Could it be that maybe I am too "small" for her? Or maybe she's not as tight I think she is, which doesn't suit my penis? I'm so scared that I wasted all this time wondering how good sex feels, and finally finding out it's not good... I don't want it to be like this.
I want to enjoy sex like everyone else does