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Because they want me to get a job and be a part of functioning society. I'm sorry, Man, but I just gotta go. Hell is awaiting my arrival.
I wonder why people want to stop me from dying, and then they go and make my life worse by nagging me and telling me how stupid and awful I am.
Why am I in a group therapy that tells us to ignore bad thoughts but focus on good thoughts? And they want me to believe in a higher power.. which I already do. But, I'm too selfish to care what they say... I just know I should've died when I tried, and they only saved me because they happened to find me and they were like, "Shit, I don't want to go to jail."
Do people really care about me? Yeah, but my disease tells me no. In order to function properly, I need somebody to give me a chance. That's what group therapy does. Also, not only does suicide affect me.. it affects everybody that loves me or cares for me. They can go into depression, too, after my death and then they won't function properly. It's a chain reaction.
Stopping one suicide could eliminate all of that.
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