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I would say you're here to hear what you already know you need to hear. Cut him off, and move on. You are still stuck by a very fine thread to a dream of the past. It's that 'what if' factor that's keeping you there. Rationally you know he's wrong and that it can never work. What god does he bring to your life at the moment? Let me guess, none? Now just disentangle your heart strings from this man and be free. Be on your own for a while. Learn to breathe unaided. Learn to love your life on your own. Then you will meet someone else. And don't compare. He was what he was. A new guy will be something else. Don't label. Soul mates. Pfff. You have a dozen of them out there. Every one will have different qualities and flaws. Believe this. Believe it because it will help you stay strong, and rely only on yourself. He is holding you back, no matter how little. It's eating at you. Break away.
This is what I would do. I have in fact done this myself. I know how you feel. It's over. Repeat this to yourself out loud as many times as you must for it to sink in. It will hurt but life ALWAYS, always goes on.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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