MinorFatality

First off, I would have posted this is the probably more appropriate sexuality board, but it wouldn't let me start a new topic there for whatever reason. So I'm sorry for being a little off-base. Now on to business.


Basically I've been in a psuedo-long distance relationship for a while now and it has finally culminating in myself and the girl meeting and I'm intensely nervous about how it is going to work out.

I'm 19, but have had the experience of a 9 year old in terms of dating, having only ever gone on one date in my life (and it was terrible) and never even having had a first kiss, let alone anything more. The girl I'm meeting will be turning 18 in the same week that we meet and has had the relationship and sexual experience of a 28 year old. This is the first point that really makes me nervous. Of course she's understanding of it, but thats irrelivent to me when I'm trying hard to make a good impression.

We met on an online game and since then have been talking on AIM from anywhere from one to four or five hours almost every day for nearly eight months. We've shared a ton of our deepest darkest secrets with eacher and even spent a little bit of time on a webcam (non-sexually) trying to overcome our mutual shyness. I like her intensely and she knows it. She knows I think of the relationship we have as the closest thing to a real couple that it can be without actually being called that. But unfortunately, she is very on the edge about how she feels in return. She likes me a fair deal.. but the long-distance factor is a turn off for her because of her experience and cravings and because she was raised to think that kind of thing was wrong. For these last eight months, I've been almost pleading with her not to do anything with any other guy and try to think of me as something closer to a boyfriend and not just a very close friend. She is still unsure despite depriving herself of sex, etc. for all this time for my sake and says that we have to meet in person for her to really make up her mind. Understandable, ofc.

But that's what scares me so much. She's such a social butterfly and so smooth in any social situation and I'm so inexperienced and naturally very very shy. I'm not sure what kind of impression that I'm going to make on her when we get to meet. I just know that I'm so crazy about this girl and I don't want anything to go wrong. I want to drive away from our time together with her assurance that we can continue on this same basic path and then one day be together for real.

Our meeting is in approximately six weeks from today. It isn't the most ideal time for us to do this, but there isn't any other opportunity unless we want to wait another four months, almost and even that isn't a certain opportunity. We both start college in the fall, mine starting about three weeks later than hers. So during that three week difference, my plan is to drive almost 500 miles across a few states to see her during her first week of college when its all the intro days to class and other BS and she can afford to spend time with her mind in the clouds. I would have to stay in a hotel room and probably be there for five or six days, spending time with her during any opportunity after classes (of which hers end around noon each day) and hopefully on the weekend. This arrangement definitely sucks, but it was truly the only way we could meet, unfortunately, due to many circumstances. But I'll take what I can get. I'll do anything for her.

The things I'm afraid of are obviously that I'll be too shy and make a bad impression or come off as boring. The college is right outside of a rather small town whose biggest attraction is "the world's biggest statue of something stupid" (sorry, trying not to give out personal details). It seems like a very boring place and I just don't know what to do seem interesting and entertain her while I'm there. It is easy for me to be fun online where I have the internet as a resource and other such things, but not so much in real life in a small town when I'm so inexperienced. To be honest, as much as I've looked forward to this meeting, its starting to scare me shitless. We of course also plan to get physical during this time -- another thing that is starting to make me a little uneasy, despite how much I've wanted to do this with her, too. She finds me sexually interesting because I have a lot of kinky fantasies.. but I'm worried that if I try to use that as a strong point for why she should like me that it will just turn into a trip that is totally sex-based and otherwise meaningless. That's not at all what I want.

I'm looking for any kind of advice that people can give me about what to do and how to act and such and even tips for the first time doing the dirty with a girl. "Just be yourself" isn't something that will cut it. As I mentioned, her 18th birthday is going to take place during that same week, but she'll have already moved into her dorm and be 1.5 hours away from her family and friends. I'll really be the only one there to help celebrate it, so I've got to do something special for her, but I can't even begin to think of what. She has a hard time accepting compliments and enjoying romantic things because she thinks they're too cheesey. But I have such a hopeless romantic personality. I'm so lost! Please help me with ideas of what we can do to have fun in such a small town and with what I can do to really make her think I'm the one for her, that I'm worth bearing the long-distance aspect of the relationship. I'm grasping at threads here! I have six weeks to prepare, but I'm worried that all I'll be able to do during that time is shit buckets of bricks worrying about it all. Please hel!

If you want/need any additional information, I'll be glad to supply.