Tilted Forum Project Discussion Community - View Single Post

Plan9 · 06-22-2009, 10:13 PM

Squeeb, are you PWI?

But, yeah, I could swear we've got several threads dedicated to this.

My mortality doesn't bother me. I've thought about it after going through some nasty situations while "serving my country." Honestly, I don't really care because I have yet to build anything with my life so far. I'll care when I've got the house and wife and kids (cats)... when I have Responsibilities (TM).

When I think about my mortality, I think about my father. When I came home from my last deployment and ditched the military he told me that he'd done everything in his life that he'd made Major Life Goals decades ago. Worthwhile career, nice house, endlessly chatty wife, and seeing his kids grow up and become successful young men. There were several occasions where he could have very easily died due to organ failures and subsequent hospital fuck-ups. He told me that while it was scary, he was okay with it... because he felt he'd done his job with his life. Something about that simple statement floors me. Mission accomplished? In life? Hell, I can't even begin to fathom that... I'm so torn by little things in life every day. I gripe about my grades and girlfriends.

Him? No Dr. Phil bullshit, no whining, no tears. The man was hooked up to machines like some kind of wrinkled CPU and told me he was okay with things.

He is a man that understands purpose and I pray that I can meet my end with the same kind of wisdom and dignity.

I have much to learn from him before he goes.

06-22-2009, 10:13 PM	#4 (permalink)
Plan9 I Confess a Shiver	Squeeb, are you PWI? But, yeah, I could swear we've got several threads dedicated to this. My mortality doesn't bother me. I've thought about it after going through some nasty situations while "serving my country." Honestly, I don't really care because I have yet to build anything with my life so far. I'll care when I've got the house and wife and kids (cats)... when I have Responsibilities (TM). When I think about my mortality, I think about my father. When I came home from my last deployment and ditched the military he told me that he'd done everything in his life that he'd made Major Life Goals decades ago. Worthwhile career, nice house, endlessly chatty wife, and seeing his kids grow up and become successful young men. There were several occasions where he could have very easily died due to organ failures and subsequent hospital fuck-ups. He told me that while it was scary, he was okay with it... because he felt he'd done his job with his life. Something about that simple statement floors me. Mission accomplished? In life? Hell, I can't even begin to fathom that... I'm so torn by little things in life every day. I gripe about my grades and girlfriends. Him? No Dr. Phil bullshit, no whining, no tears. The man was hooked up to machines like some kind of wrinkled CPU and told me he was okay with things. He is a man that understands purpose and I pray that I can meet my end with the same kind of wisdom and dignity. I have much to learn from him before he goes. __________________ *Whatever you can carry.* "You should not drink... and bake." Last edited by Plan9; 06-22-2009 at 10:18 PM..