I have been mostly single for a few years now, and though I miss the companionship, I am fiercely independent and like things my own way. I'm not sure I will ever be able to be in a long-term committed relationship again. I want to have kids some day. That is my only hesitation. My last long-term stint ended badly and sometimes I still feel the bitterness even though I'd never take him back. Well, it doesn't help that he married the rebound girl. But I'm pretty sure I still got the better deal.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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