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Besides, I actually like to be an asshole on occasion; it gets things done quicker to be THAT kind of assertive. Within reason of course.  I like bitchy people. I'm sort of a submissive personality, but because I grew up in a household where I learned how to thoroughly slaughter the sensibilities of my aggressor with a barrage of objective logic tilted to my favor, argument is a useful skeleton key to everything I might ever want or need. |
I've read your posts, and the responses, and from what you have said, I think your calling is the law. You are not a "sort of submissive" personality, you are a passive aggressive personality.
You are absolutely correct. Argument is a useful skeleton key to everything you might ever want or need. Use it to your advantage. Use it for what you want to attain.
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Nevertheless, techno-jobs and inherited resources aside, I just can't bring myself to do something I can't see as ultimately necessary for MY survival.
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If you are the type of personality you appear to be, then successful argument, winning, accolades and money that comes from those WILL become necessary for your survival.
The problem is you haven't been able to replicate the praise and adoration you received as a child. You can do so as a successful defense attorney. Yep.
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I am not nearly a worst case, and here's why.
It's that rebellious thing again, because what I really want, is
to pull up roots, dig a really big hole and live out of it.
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I suspect that you wish you could go somewhere that no one knows you, start over and be instantly successful. You don't want to live in a hole, you want to live in a fabulous apartment, that others envy. You really just want to break the chains of who and where you are, you wish for a new identity, to break out, run, without preconceived notions of what you should be or become.
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I don't want to work because there's no real meaning in the long run, and yet to get that long-run goal, I've gotta work on my short-game.
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You do want to work. Certainly all of your friends and associates don't sit around all the time with nothing to do. You want to fill that time with what you believe is "meaningful". That may mean simply something that gives you a paycheck, or something that makes you satisfied with how you spend your working time. It's up to you. When you find what you are meant to do, you will want to work, because it will be your passion.
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I think there's some room for discussion on why there's this -this self-destructive pseudo-rebellious tendency- that my generation has to cope with. It's the thing that people like me (strong conscience, open minded, and weak willed) have to deal with... or face the consequences.
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Honestly, I'm not concerned with your entire generation. I see you posting and asking for answers. Maybe no one here has one, maybe someone will post a magic sentence that gives you a wake up or a direction to point yourself in.
To me, you show an aptitude for the law. Does that mean anything? No. Should you spend 15 minutes thinking about it? Yes.
You are not weak willed, you are without direction. You need to find where your compass is pointing and follow it.