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Originally Posted by squeeeb
i want to say the worst pain i've been is was getting the tattoo at the base of my neck, right on my spine. or maybe the anesthetic needle in my cheekbone for the stitches under my eye. right now though, the worst pain is the pain of a meaningless life lived alone.
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I thinks interesting people bring up mental or emotional pain here. Don't know why I find it interesting, just do. Also think it's very appropriate because some the of the gut wrenching personal crap in life over the years has been way worse the most of my physical pain. The Boss wrote-
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Sometimes its like someone took a knife baby
Edgy and dull and cut a six-inch valley
Through the middle of my soul
At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet
And a freight train running through the
Middle of my head
Only you can cool my desire
Im on fire
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I know that feeling. I've lived that feeling.
squeeeb I too am on my own. I know your pain, it sucks. I don't know your situation but getting out and meeting people/making friends is a good way to fill the empty void of living alone. In the nearly two years I've lived here that hasn't lead to meeting that certain someone. My options here seem limited to crazy women several years, 15-20min, older then me or someone down here on vacation. If I'm lucky it's two weeks most of the time it's one. They can be great weeks, down right fucking fantastic. But they leave, they always leave. Then I'm left with a few e-mails and a couple calls and eventually the inevitable message or conversation of how long distant shit just never works. Can't disagree with that and I'm not leaving some place I'm very happy at to change this situation. I've done the local ladies thing a few times and the cultural divide is beyond my ability. Stuff like I end up turning them off by not getting worked up enough when someone looks at them or flirts with them, thus meaning I don't really like them. Or they want to start a family. Or in one case they end up having a husband they simply forgot to mention. Meeting him wasn't pleasant, he was more then happy to be worked up over the situation. Honestly I give up on relationships here, just likely never going to happen. maybe someday when I'm done playing in the sunshine I'll move north. Maybe in 15-20 yrs someone will show up that I won't find crazy or I'll be just as nuts and it won't matter.
Guess what my rambling thoughts this morning are trying to say is try to be happy in life. Do things that you enjoy. Get involved in shit you have fun doing, things that make you happy. If you're happy it will show. Maybe that will result in a more positive result in your search. If it doesn't then at least you're doing stuff you enjoy.