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Thanks for the reply. Knowing that someone will always dislike me does help a lot. It's funny because if I'm out somewhere with somebody else, my fear practically vanishes. But I don't want my fear to go away because I know somebody else likes me. Because if they die or move away, I'll be afraid again. What I want is to know that the person who dislikes me is in the wrong some how. That is, I'm not doing anything that makes me bad.
For example, most people look at a man with makeup, nail polish, and vibrant clothes and think they're gay. The people who hate gays will treat them poorly, and the people who like gays will be nice to them. But the fault is in the assumption - that man may not be gay at all. So, the dislike / like is based on an assumption of someone's orientation rather than anything real at all. The people don't dislike him because of the nail polish - they dislike him because of what kind of person he is.
I want to walk around and stop worrying about the people who will assume things about me. I suppose I want to walk around and stop worrying about those who assume correct things about me, too.
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