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I obsess over not doing enough in my day. I make lists of things I need to do and I never seem to get through an entire list in a day. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough, I can't cut it. I pretty much beat myself up about it every single day. In my head I question myself ' did I do enough? Why didn't I do this, or that? I should have done this, or that. I did this, or that, but it didn't come out like I wanted it to. I should have done a lot better. I'll have to do better tomorrow'. Rinse, repeat.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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