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Originally Posted by roachboy
i made the point i intended to make in no. 17, pan.
maybe you didn't see it----i assumed you did and just thought your post a remarkable demonstration of what i was saying.
suffice it to say you totally misunderstood my response.
but the point i am making is pretty ugly: so your reaction isn't entirely a surprise.
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Having re-read #17, and hopefully reading it right, I owe you an appology. I though you were being sarcastic and telling me that somehow the event Saturday was my fault, in your later post. If I combine that post with 17, I can see I was proving your point and we have been close to saying the same thing...maybe. Your style is very difficult to understand sometimes.... as is mine.
Anyway, if I am correct, I WHOLE HEARTEDLY APPOLOGIZE FOR MY RANT. As you can imagine, I am very tense and worked up over this whole situation. I may lose my career and everything I have attained in my sobriety (respect from others, dream job of helping others, a career I love). Because someone decided to play the race card to hide his bad behaviors.... But in some way, given I work with addicts and that is what we when practicing our addiction do.... maybe I should have seen this coming and just dialed the phone and enabled his bad behaviors more or ignored the fact he threatened and touched me. Yet, in doing so, how is that helping the addict to recover if you are so scared of what may happen that you cannot point out bad behavior for fear of that manipulation being turned against you?
Catch 22 I guess.