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I've developed a view lately of being fine with semi-fulfillment. I learned a while ago that I am the type of person who is never going to be totally happy about anything (at least, not for long!). I am critical and analytical to a fault, and I am capable of finding flaws in anyone and anything... so I used to believe that nothing could ever make me happy, and that I should move on in order to seek perfection and completion.
It took a long time for me to learn how to shut up that side of me and just live a little, be happy with some degree of fulfillment, and not try to deconstruct everything that came across my path (believe me, I still have bad habits, but I tone it down a bit these days). This applies to my marriage, my career, living situation, everything... nothing will satisfy me 100%, so I try to teach myself to be content with semi-fulfillment, knowing that's as close as my critical personality is going to let me get to happiness. And I think that's alright, really. It's a process for me, learning how to deal with my own voices and not about expecting other people to fulfill my every need.
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And think not you can direct the course of Love;
for Love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
--Khalil Gibran
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