School is a full-time endeavor all to itself. Don't work while you're going to school. It's too much stress for someone who is perfectly mentally stable. It's going to be overwhelming and unhealthy for you. If you go to a good school with an intensive full-time nursing program, you're going to be happy that you don't have a job.
Plan to go to school full-time. Find a program. Register. Apply for financial aid. Plan to start this program this Fall. Between now and Fall, get yourself into a regular schedule. Wake up at a certain time every morning. Make yourself a healthy breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Do your own laundry. Ask your parents to help you develop the domestic skills you will need to live on your own. Keep yourself busy with hobbies or volunteering all day - things that you find rewarding. Learn how to say "no" to time commitments. Regularly meet with your physicians and make sure that your medications are interacting with your body the way they should.
Your boyfriend has trust issues, which he needs to sort out.
Have you shared with him the excellent reasons you have shared with us - of why you should not go with him?
Does he know that you're on medications?
Does he know the cost of a monthly dose of these medications without health insurance?
Does he know how much it costs for you to visit a physician and psychiatrist?
Does he know how difficult it is to find a psychiatrist that you trust?
Do yourself a favor and make out a spreadsheet of your monthly medical expenses. Calculate what it would be without medical insurance.
It should be a wake-up call to yourself and your boyfriend.
It's OK to be dependent upon your parents at age 20. Especially when you're going to school. It's healthy to be dependent upon your parents when you're dealing with the mental issues that you're facing right now. It would be unhealthy to be dependent upon a boyfriend in this case.
If you have discussed all of this stuff with you boyfriend in detail, and he still wants you to come with him:
He is either a selfish jerk or an imbicile. You can do better.
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