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See, my problem is I've heard it all before. I've heard all the stories. I've been to shrinks. They can't help me. I already know what my problem is, I hate working, and as I'm well aware, such is life. There is only one solution to that, and believe it or not I am actually trying to avoid it. I've been on SSRIs and Wellbutrin. Not only do they all have various bad side effects, they basically act by numbing you to life, and quite frankly, I'd rather be dead. Or at least on better drugs.
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This is the issue you SHOULD be dealing with, not taking cocaine to 'solve'. You're trying to patch your leaking tire with fix-a-flat and the real issue is you need a whole new tire.
It takes longer to get a new tire, and it sure as hell isn't as easy as pumping the tire up with more foamy shit. But if you keep fix-a-flating your tire, it soon becomes a bald tire, then a rim with rubber shredded and thrown everywhere, and then a rim sparking as it grinds along the asphalt. Keep driving on the rim and you're fucking dead. Game over.
Everyone says they 'hate working,' but not in the sense you intend. Find things that help you relax after work; dancing, theatre, TV, video games. Find ways to educate yourself - start saving your cocaine money ($$$) for EDUCATION, and enroll in a community college or University. Get a degree, and get a job that's not just a job. A 'career' might be a drag every once and a while, but it might be something you can actually enjoy 9 days out of 10.
Life is hell for everyone who HAS to work to make it by, who HAS to put up with asshole bosses and customers just to put food on table. It's those of us who can suck it up and educate ourselves that escape the endless loop of pain known as 'jobs'. People underestimate their 'jobs', even though they're spending 40, 50 even 60 hours a week there. How can that NOT affect your perception of other people, your perception of life, or your perception of your worth? Re-consider your career choices, man.