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Originally Posted by Anonymous Member
I don't want to turn this into a public drama but I must give my side of the story. And I will politely decline to tell you all what % of her monthly income she spends on blow herself. I am not a saint. Judge me if you will.
I take probably 50 mg a day, this is not a lot of coke, this is not even a single line, this is practically coca leaf levels. Some Indian down there probably gets that much cocaine in a day chewing leaves and he doesn't have his woman complaining about it to the tribe. I'll take a gram on one day of the weekend but you're doing it with me.
The vicodin IS for pain, not physical but mental pain. It's definitely not for the come down from the coke, because I'm not sure if everyone's aware, but there IS no come down from <100 mg a day. You don't even get high. Please do not assume I am getting high every day, I am not. It's like caffeine but better, a little energy boost and focus with no jittery crash. I definitely recommend it, if you can handle your shit.
Leave if you must, I am tired of babysitting. Lets see you pay your own rent and bills for once and tell me you're not going to be hating life at some point. |
Multiyear drug user here again
Nice rationalization. But sorry, that smells like a big super duper helping of bullshit.
It doesn't matter how much you are doing, it matters *WHY* you are doing it. If you aren't getting high, then why are you doing it? Seriously why waste it and just wait until the weekend when you can snort up the whole gram? As far as any addict will tell you, that little bump you do, yeah that's getting high.
You aren't doing it for enjoyment but because of escapism, to escape the pitiful life of pain you seem to feel you have.
You hate your life because you pay your own rent or bills? Is that really your answer? Because you've got a long period of hating life coming up for about the rest of your life, bills don't stop until you're dead. After you're dead they still keep coming until someone notifies the collector that you're dead and even then they'll still come.
You?re Dead? That Won?t Stop the Debt Collector - Companies * US * News * Story - CNBC.com
As a person who spent over many years doing exactly what you're talking about doing and rationalizing it exactly like you're doing, maybe you should read what you're actually writing.
I hated life. I couldn't wait to die. Today, I still feel some of that, but not with the same vigor and anguish. There are parts of my life that I hate, they suck. It's not much different than anyone else's part of life. I work at it every day to make sure that I hate it less than I love it. It has taken me long years of working on it every single mother fucking day to beat that feeling down into something that is manageable so that I no longer think about stepping off the sidewalk to allow the large vehicle passing by to squash whatever life I have out of my shell. I work on it on a daily basis. You should too.