He can't find vicodin so he isn't going to be able to do as he says. He just tells me that he wants to. Sometimes he tells me he tempted to get some heroin. This really disturbs me of course, I have seen lots of people lost to heroin addiction.
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Originally Posted by *Nikki*
It doesn't sound to me like you really want to change anything at all. Why do you want people to tell you drug use is bad, isn't this common sense??
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I wasn't saying I didn't want to hear that. I was just hoping someone would have something more to say than that. I know he will read this and I know telling him that will not help.
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Originally Posted by Anonymous Member
Multi-year drug user here of whatever was available.
I thought the same thing. It didn't affect my ability to be with my friends, loved ones, workmates, the world.
I used a little here and a little there to get me through the day. I used it like a carrot for the end of the day. One day I needed that little burst to get me started in the morning and push me off into the world. It was the beginning of the end. It started with a little, then a little took a lot, which seemed like just a little, but it really was a lot.
I hid it from friends and from loved ones for the most part. Some knew. Others had no idea.
My advice, seek guidance in Ala-non. It may seem hokey and stupid. But find shelter there in understanding what is going on around you.
As far as your SO is concerned. He will not stop until he decides it is time to stop. It may be tomorrow. It may be years. It isn't yours to decide, you only can decide what you do for your life and your life alone.
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I don't expect him just to stop or do anything for me, but realize it is affecting how we interact. I guess it is too much to ask and I am just as guilty as he is. I don't know what to say. I love him, but this is destroying everything we are.
I'll have to move into a shelter and get on with my life. I'm breaking my own heart by leaving, but it probably what is best for us both. I want him to be happy, and I just make him so angry lately. If can't keep my mouth shut and keep the peace, I am only making it worse.
I want to help him, but I understand you can only help yourself. I don't want to change him. I just want it to be like it was before.
I guess he's right, I am neurotic.