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The words "NOT HEALTHY" are flashing through my mind right now. I'm not judging you or your situation, but there are certain things that give me pause.
First of all, I don't know anyone who doesn't experience some level of stress on their job. Of course we all have our coping mechanisms--caffeine, nicotine, an after-work martini....whatever. BUT if your job stress is so high that you have to resort to recreational drug use....there seems to be a problem. Using illegal drugs, or legal drugs in an illegal fashion, can give you bigger job problems--like not having one.
Second of all, you describe this relationship as "not all bad" and your SO as being "really loving at times". Now, I know relationships aren't all wine and roses, but, your use of these descriptors make me nervous. Evaluate things and ask yourself how much is bad, and how often he's not "really loving". It may be more than you think.
I wish you the best of luck with this...
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"With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy."
-Desiderata
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