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the thing about that is you have no control over how you make other people feel. you could either rub someone the wrong way or totally make someone's day just by saying hello or striking up a conversation the exact same way.
here's an analogy... i have a musician friend who's struggling with drinking. they tell me that they don't feel comfortable playing a show sober. but the only reason for that is because they've played dozens of shows drunk and only 1 or 2 shows sober. it's outside their own comfort zone. if they just practiced playing sober and got used to it, they would be able to pull it off just as easily as drunk. the crowd they play to, on the other hand would form it's own opinion seperately, just depending on how that particular show went.
just remember that you could just as easily really positively effect someone by "practicing" socializing with them as you could being awkward, but every following attempt you make at socializing will be helped by the practice you put in today. if you really want it, it's there just like any other skill.
back to the girl... it seems obvious to me that she could like you, but it's going to have to be on her terms. this means that anytime you take one step toward her, she'll take 3 steps away from you. if you can stay focused and healthy and not spiral out of control with a crush on her, then try to treat her like a stray kitty... be nice, and pet her when she comes around, but don't try to chase her because the natural reaction when being chased is to flee. just keep being a fan of yourself and what you got going on, and don't get your hopes up. that way the only thing you might get is a pleasant surprise instead of a bitter disappointment.
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-my phobia drowned while i was gettin down.
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