I have a friend who sounds a great deal like you, he handles news of any kind extremely well but especially bad news. It's not that he doesn't feel angry or upset by the news but he is able to put his own emotions to the side and deal with the practicalities of the situation first THEN let himself feel bad.
If you're still feeling the emotions that you would associate with the news involved (the death of the grandmother would make you feel sad for example) then I wouldn't worry too much. Unless you're not feeling anything at all you should be fine. To me it just sounds like you've just accepted from a young age that crying, yelling, screaming won't change any of the realities going on in life, the world will keep turning, the sun will keep rising and that you need to go on with your life.
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