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I wish I never learned to make violence so easy. Fighting that back is the hardest thing I do, some days. I'll wrestle with that the rest of my life.
I learned everything my grandfather did to keep me from my mom, much of it illegal. I was on the verge of forgiving him for 10 years of beating and verbal onslaught (not to mention throwing me in a ghetto shit town, in an orphanage no less, when I got too big to keep under control) and now I have to deal with that. Him and I will have to talk in the next life, so it seems, because it aint happening in this one. He's going to die in a few years most likely. So be it. I wish I hadn't learned that. I had suppressed much of that information until it was presented to me again, then it came flooding back. Not sure how that's "the hard way", unless you count suppression of memories being reawakened.
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We contend that for a nation to try to tax itself into prosperity is like a man standing in a bucket and trying to lift himself up by the handle.
-Winston Churchill
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