Xerxys

Dude, you ARE over thinking this. Rubbing one out isn't a bad thing unless it's getting in your way of thinking. Then you have a problem right there.

And also, I think you should stop, until you get a girlfriend. Masturbation is not physically unhealthy, it may get you addicted to it, (by the sound of it it sounds you already are) but it also desensitizes your social faculties and you become less and less inclined to be with someone cause you do such a good job yourself. Trust me, I stopped cause it was way to god I felt I had to do it all the time. I usually get freaked out when something feels too good.

And also, about the buying porn thing......... >>LINK<<