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Cynosure · 11-11-2008, 08:06 AM

I've never engaged in anything sexual with another man. However, as a boy and in my early teens, I did some things.

(Hmm. It's been many years since I thought about this... )

When I was 11, around the time my parents were getting a divorce, I kissed my best friend, full on the lips. I don't know why, exactly; I was acting on an impulse of affection, and it was totally from out of nowhere, seemingly. We were riding his bike, and I was seated on the handlebars, and I kissed him just after we rolled to a stop and I grabbed onto his shoulders for support. I remember he had blonde hair and blue eyes; and even now, some 30 years later, I can still see his face.

Sometimes, this friend and I stripped naked and ran through the woods, together. We pretended we were survivors of a shipwreck or something, and thus we had become wild boys. There was no touching of each other, nor was there any focus on our genitals, while we played. And yet there was a sexual element about it.

Months later, the remnants of my family moved away, to another city. A couple of years after that, when I was 13, I got to go spend a weekend with my former best friend, who I hadn't seen for over a year. (During our time apart, we wrote each other, a couple of times. But those letters were merely about boyhood interests, such as comic books and TV shows, and had no affection in them that I can recall.) One night, while we were lying in his bed together and talking about stuff, our conversation turned to the subject about girls, and then about sex. That's when my friend told me about anal intercourse, and how "it felt just like having sex with a girl", and that we should try it. The idea was totally new to me, and sounded interesting; and since, at that time, I had hardly any misgivings about homosexuality impressed upon me by society and/or religion, I consented, and we gave it a try. Only, there was no full penetration, and neither of us orgasmed.

After that weekend, we ended up never seeing each other again, and eventually we fell out of contact with each other. I don't know if he grew up to be bi-sexual or a homosexual, or what. Myself, I grew up to be heterosexual. I've never participated in any homosexual activity, since then, nor have I really been tempted to. (Although, in my early to late 20's, on several occassions, I had some unwanted attention from gays, and at least one of them was quite overt about it.) Once I began kissing females, and eventually having sex with them, I never really looked back.

11-11-2008, 08:06 AM	#45 (permalink)
Cynosure Psycho Location: the center of the multiverse	I've never engaged in anything sexual with another man. However, as a boy and in my early teens, I did some things. (Hmm. It's been many years since I thought about this... ) When I was 11, around the time my parents were getting a divorce, I kissed my best friend, full on the lips. I don't know why, exactly; I was acting on an impulse of affection, and it was totally from out of nowhere, seemingly. We were riding his bike, and I was seated on the handlebars, and I kissed him just after we rolled to a stop and I grabbed onto his shoulders for support. I remember he had blonde hair and blue eyes; and even now, some 30 years later, I can still see his face. Sometimes, this friend and I stripped naked and ran through the woods, together. We pretended we were survivors of a shipwreck or something, and thus we had become wild boys. There was no touching of each other, nor was there any focus on our genitals, while we played. And yet there was a sexual element about it. Months later, the remnants of my family moved away, to another city. A couple of years after that, when I was 13, I got to go spend a weekend with my former best friend, who I hadn't seen for over a year. (During our time apart, we wrote each other, a couple of times. But those letters were merely about boyhood interests, such as comic books and TV shows, and had no affection in them that I can recall.) One night, while we were lying in his bed together and talking about stuff, our conversation turned to the subject about girls, and then about sex. That's when my friend told me about anal intercourse, and how "it felt just like having sex with a girl", and that we should try it. The idea was totally new to me, and sounded interesting; and since, at that time, I had hardly any misgivings about homosexuality impressed upon me by society and/or religion, I consented, and we gave it a try. Only, there was no full penetration, and neither of us orgasmed. After that weekend, we ended up never seeing each other again, and eventually we fell out of contact with each other. I don't know if he grew up to be bi-sexual or a homosexual, or what. Myself, I grew up to be heterosexual. I've never participated in any homosexual activity, since then, nor have I really been tempted to. (Although, in my early to late 20's, on several occassions, I had some unwanted attention from gays, and at least one of them was quite overt about it.) Once I began kissing females, and eventually having sex with them, I never really looked back.