anti fishstick

I think I'm a transient type, for now. If not physically (because I've lived in Central Oregon for 3 years), then mentally, I still feel like a transient. This is because I feel I am free-spirited, and can't actually think of staying in any one place for too long. 3 years and I'm already getting the jitters!

I am transient because I have no attachments to a family (no kids).
I am transient because I just got out of a long term relationship (5 years!). The gist of it was that I no longer felt it was my path to be in a relationshp, even though I didn't want to leave him. I knew I had to experience living life on my own (lived with my parents for 23 years and moved straight into his place after that), finding my sense of self, and gaining confidence and independence.
I am transient because I am searching... I want to travel, I want to experience new things.. I am terrified of change but I want to face it head on.
I am transient because while I do own a house, I am looking to room with other people and pay rent again.

So being transient is more of a state-of-mind for me right now, but that means I'd like to make it more of a reality soon...
I really am not in a place, or age, to want to settle right now. I am young, still in my 20s. That's not to say that being in my previous relationship was 'settling' for my ex... I really do think we were the right people at the wrong time.

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And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
~Anais Nin