I had to look up what Conservapedia said about abortion...
Abortion - Conservapedia
As for your Russian Roulette question, would I know the person? Would I have to take part as someone who could get shot? I couldn't do it if it was a cute girl, but if it was a guy I didn't know maybe $100 and I would pull the trigger. Yeah, there's probably some psychological issues there.
So, what would need to change in your life so you could handle an issue like a baby? Is it just the lack of money? Do you fear having to put college on hold for a few years? Do you just not know enough about parenting?