ok, this is one of those rare times where i really am lost. well, not really as i see several possible outcomes and all of them are almost as bad as each other. at this point i´m just quite lost.
this will also explain a very significant portion of my recent near-total absense from tfp.
ok: my birthday, 4th july i get guests, a russian then a dutch and belgian. this is about the dutch girl. i´m going to try to keep it short and to the point as it could get very long very quickly.
myself and "f" instantly get along like a house on fire. the reason we met is that she was coming to iceland to do a work camp and posted on the iceland group on couchsurfing. i noticed we have near identical taste in music and offer to host her and emmanuel. so, straight away we start talking about music. it takes less than a day and we´re like old friends, to the detriment of my other guests. she goes off to the workcamp and accidentally leaves behind her phone charger. i use it as an excuse and take another visitor on a roadtrip to the other side of iceland to drop it off. i accidentally leave my computer there (both actually
were accidents...) f brings it back with her a week later. that night i had no guests with me and we already slept together (although did nothing more than have fun
but she did say that she missed me while on the camp) and from the following day we seemed to form a relationship. we roadtripped snæfellsnes and the westfjords but saw little more than each other. we had the weekend together then she went back to the netherlands. well i certainly gave her a going away present
straight away we were smsing, emailing, msning and using whatever computer-based medium we had available to communicate and now, 2 weeks later it´s not dying down like i thought it might. obviously i´m annoyed since she´s out of reach and she´s making it pretty clear that the feeling is mutual.
so this is the part i don´t know: where to from here? one thing is happening: on the 20th i´m off to visit family and friends in slovenia and on the way back i´ve squeezed in a couple of days in nl to visit. i guess it will be interesting to see how we come together then. but this is where it stands: me: in iceland on an eu passport. no real connection to the country except for a few new and pretty good friends and just about to start a masters in engineering (which i´m not too keen on.) her: just started a doctorate in psychology (which she´s not too keen on), 6 months in a new city in the netherlands and really starting to enjoy it. right now i feel a bit stuck between a rock and a hard place. welcoming insights, anecdotes or just random....