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I actually think most people don't live life as if it were their last day on earth. Are you telling me that what you did/are doing today is what you'd do if you knew it was the last day of your life? I know that what I did today is a far cry from that. That doesn't mean I don't feel that I had a good day or that I wasn't useful or happy or kind. Makes me think what I actually would do if it were the last day of my life.
I think if it were the last day (or days) of my life, I'd look back and be happy enough. Not thrilled and ecstatic but happy. I don't feel I have wasted my life and time, I have done several good things, forged many good relationships, and felt very happy in moments. Of course there are things, there are always things, that I didn't get to do. That is not too bad for me.
I do try to live my life the best way I can...some days I feel it's good enough. Some days I feel like I should do more. So much more. And every dayI try to push it a little further. But I think so far, I feel serene about the choices made. That's the best way I can put it.
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Whether we write or speak or do but look
We are ever unapparent. What we are
Cannot be transfused into word or book.
Our soul from us is infinitely far.
However much we give our thoughts the will
To be our soul and gesture it abroad,
Our hearts are incommunicable still.
In what we show ourselves we are ignored.
The abyss from soul to soul cannot be bridged
By any skill of thought or trick of seeming.
Unto our very selves we are abridged
When we would utter to our thought our being.
We are our dreams of ourselves, souls by gleams,
And each to each other dreams of others' dreams.
Fernando Pessoa, 1918
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