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toaster_oven · 07-28-2008, 07:16 AM

Hi TFP

I'm male and my partner is female. She told me that a few years ago (before I met her) she drunkenly kissed and fondled her best friend (female) in a taxi and that she enjoyed it, but it was just a bit of a laugh, she was drunk etc. She said it was weird but interesting but that she and her friend had never talked about it again, and they're still best of friends.

Later on I met her, and we started seeing each other and she told me the above story. She likes hardcore porn and sex and everything and we've been to a couple of strip clubs together and although they were a bit of a disappointment we still had fun.

We went on holiday to a foreign country and she had suggested, quite strongly, that she might be up for a threesome with another woman. I think I made a big mistake by (drunkenly) pointing out potential women in the bars we went to and she told me that she was a bit jealous of me checking out other women. I understood that and I dropped the subject and nothing else happened.

I don't identify as gay or bisexual at all, but if she suggested or asked about anything at all, I would consider it and to be honest, as long as she and I were together after the fact then I would consider pretty much anything sexual and I'd do it just to see how it was for the both of us. I don't have a secret longing to be with men or to live a polygamous lifestyle or anything - I just think that she's the one I want to be with and that we can try various things together. Basically as long as one person wants something that won't really hurt anybody, and that the couple will stay together and experience it was a couple, then why not?

Anyway, I recently sent her a text message and I casually mentioned that time with her friend in the taxi and basically just some sexy thoughts that I had. Her reply was very nice but she pretty much said that I should get over all of that stuff and that I should really forget about it. Her message didn't sound mean at all, but really matter of fact. She said that experiences with women will 'never happen again'.

I guess I just have to wonder, and ask this question of TFP. I would risk, and give my life for this woman, I think she is amazing in ways I can't even begin to describe. I think our communication is very, very good, but perhaps not perfect. I would risk my life for her. That also means that I would do something I'm not 100% entirely comfortable with, or that I'm unsure about, just to please her, because as long as we're together afterwards, and that it doesn't hurt anybody, and surely it's just a bit of fun? If she suggested another person (male or female), handcuffs or a video camera or figging or anything outside the norm, I think I'd be up for it, as long as I was sure it would just be me and her afterwards. As long as it didn't hurt anyone else I honestly think there's nothing I wouldn't try, just to see, and just for fun. I've promised her time and time again that she's the one I want, and that any experimenting or fun or whatever will not result in my leaving her, and that is a fact.

I guess I'm wondering whether I'm justified in feeling a bit jealous or left out? I'd do pretty much anything to fulfill her desires, I'd do sexual stuff that I wouldn't really think of myself just to satisfy her desires and make her feel happy (just to note that she hasn't requested this, so this is just my feelings) and I'd pretty much do anything with her, as long as we did it hand in hand and we knew that we could still cook a lovely dinner afterwards, eat it and fall asleep hand in hand that night.

Basically, I'd do anyything she asked, but I'm feeling awkward and asking her to do things that she has done in the past but won't do now.

07-28-2008, 07:16 AM	#1 (permalink)
toaster_oven Banned	Not sure of how to react Hi TFP I'm male and my partner is female. She told me that a few years ago (before I met her) she drunkenly kissed and fondled her best friend (female) in a taxi and that she enjoyed it, but it was just a bit of a laugh, she was drunk etc. She said it was weird but interesting but that she and her friend had never talked about it again, and they're still best of friends. Later on I met her, and we started seeing each other and she told me the above story. She likes hardcore porn and sex and everything and we've been to a couple of strip clubs together and although they were a bit of a disappointment we still had fun. We went on holiday to a foreign country and she had suggested, quite strongly, that she might be up for a threesome with another woman. I think I made a big mistake by (drunkenly) pointing out potential women in the bars we went to and she told me that she was a bit jealous of me checking out other women. I understood that and I dropped the subject and nothing else happened. I don't identify as gay or bisexual at all, but if she suggested or asked about anything at all, I would consider it and to be honest, as long as she and I were together after the fact then I would consider pretty much anything sexual and I'd do it just to see how it was for the both of us. I don't have a secret longing to be with men or to live a polygamous lifestyle or anything - I just think that she's the one I want to be with and that we can try various things together. Basically as long as one person wants something that won't really hurt anybody, and that the couple will stay together and experience it was a couple, then why not? Anyway, I recently sent her a text message and I casually mentioned that time with her friend in the taxi and basically just some sexy thoughts that I had. Her reply was very nice but she pretty much said that I should get over all of that stuff and that I should really forget about it. Her message didn't sound mean at all, but really matter of fact. She said that experiences with women will 'never happen again'. I guess I just have to wonder, and ask this question of TFP. I would risk, and give my life for this woman, I think she is amazing in ways I can't even begin to describe. I think our communication is very, very good, but perhaps not perfect. I would risk my life for her. That also means that I would do something I'm not 100% entirely comfortable with, or that I'm unsure about, just to please her, because as long as we're together afterwards, and that it doesn't hurt anybody, and surely it's just a bit of fun? If she suggested another person (male or female), handcuffs or a video camera or figging or anything outside the norm, I think I'd be up for it, as long as I was sure it would just be me and her afterwards. As long as it didn't hurt anyone else I honestly think there's nothing I wouldn't try, just to see, and just for fun. I've promised her time and time again that she's the one I want, and that any experimenting or fun or whatever will not result in my leaving her, and that is a fact. I guess I'm wondering whether I'm justified in feeling a bit jealous or left out? I'd do pretty much anything to fulfill her desires, I'd do sexual stuff that I wouldn't really think of myself just to satisfy her desires and make her feel happy (just to note that she hasn't requested this, so this is just my feelings) and I'd pretty much do anything with her, as long as we did it hand in hand and we knew that we could still cook a lovely dinner afterwards, eat it and fall asleep hand in hand that night. Basically, I'd do anyything she asked, but I'm feeling awkward and asking her to do things that she has done in the past but won't do now.