so just an update and clarification for those still reading this thread (i had no idea it was still goin...)
while in the past my faith has led me to keep my virginity, it is not currently holding a leash on me. i still feel very strongly about my faith, but me remaining a virgin is not part of my beliefs. my main hang-up has become that i've just put it off so long that not having sex is "safe." anyway, i'm growing to accept the idea that i am okay with not being a virgin anymore (but, for the record, i still am). the girl i was dating in my original post turned out to be a self-absorbed flake so i broke it off. we'll just have to see what happens with the next lucky girl to come along
