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I am quite sensitive about my weight, and while I don't check the scale very often, the changes in how my clothes fit often determine how I feel on any day. Being only 5' 1", I don't have a lot of space for curves, so even though I'm not overweight (116?), I feel very squat. I feel like a little over-stuffed burrito wondering through life.
I feel like an absolute whale around my boyfriend. He is 5' 6" and 113 (with no effort at all). He is fucking skinny, in other words. I think sometimes that I might crush the poor man when we're in bed. When I ask him about my weight, he usually avoids answering, which I take to mean that he would prefer me skinnier, but either doesn't want to hurt my feelings, or he doesn't want me angry at him. It could well be my misconception and self-consciousness, but it seems like he avoids touching certain parts of me in bed- my stomach, my thighs, my love handles. Sigh. I exercise some - biking, hiking, working as a landscaper, but I find the gym boring, and I detest running. I would probably feel a hell of a lot better if I lost 15 lbs, but I love baking and cooking and eating, and I don't exercise enough to do more than keep me toned and at my current weight. Sigh.
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